Homesick

I think if I were to be completely honest I would say that I have been trying to ignore/deny the fact that I'm homesick. Even more than that, how much I am homesick. This week has been hard. I still don't have a placement and having everything up in the air and not have any sot of routine is wearing on me. I thrive on knowing what my day is going to be like and the stability that comes from that.
I have found myself waking up and in a bad mood for no reason at all. The people I am around, where before I loved hanging out with them, just annoy me and piss me off. All I want right now is a familiar face and that feeling of comfort that you get when you are with someone who truly gets you and all the crap in your life.
I've started to tell people about my life and everything that has happened, but something happens and the walls go up. I hesitate and just move on in the conversation.
I know that I am supposed to think that this is God testing me and that I'm down here for a reason, but hearing that and thinking that doesn't help anything. I find no comfort and hearing that its all happening for a reason. I don't know I guess I just continue to get up each day and hope that this is the day I get a job and I find a new "normal" for my life.
Alright whining over.

Love you and miss you all more than you know,
Sarah