and the adventure continues

So that last post was just absolutely, pitifully depressing. It got everyone all worried and crap. So to everyone *cough*mom*cough* I AM FINE! I promise, i even pinkie promise. I had a hard week last week. That is all, stop worrying so much :) (i know that won't happen but i gotta say it)
So on to other things. So I STILL don't have a job yet. Its getting a little annoying that people keep asking me about it. I know that they care and want to know whats going but yeah... Trust me people when I get a job you will all know. After calling my mother I will be screaming about it at the top of my lungs on facebook, twitter, and youtube. So while I hate not having a job and not really having and real stability or routine in my life I am feeling pretty okay about it. I truly have adopted a "i'm here for a reason and whatever happens, happens" Whats that song "que sera" (sp?) What ever will be, will be. :D Its nice having this mindset. it gives me a sense of peace within all the craziness. SO yeah
So in the past week I have reconnected/connected with a friend from home. We have been talking a bit and through the course of our convos he revealed stuff to me about himself and I told him stuff about me. After finding this stuff out it totally changed how I viewed him and how he acts while talking to me. Its so cool its like talking to a completely different person (and I'm not exaggerating) I think its really cool. We are comfortable with each other. But something that I find sad is that he has to keep this info about himself secret, and that he can't be himself around people. I think its so sad that we live in a world where we have to put on masks wherever we are, whether church, school, work, even at home. For me personally I have worn so many different masks that I woke up one day and realized that I didn't really know who I honestly was. The way I acted, talked, the things I was into were so different. Thankfully I was able to work it all out and figure out who I am while I am still young.
Now I say all this but I do think that a certain sense of a mask is important in life. You have to act certain ways when you are in different circumstances. You can't act the same way with all your friends at home and at work and all that jazz.
So yeah this is just me rambling and putting down some stuff thats been on my mind.
Embrace it, love it, live it :D

Love and miss you all,
Sarah