Familiarity

I'm sitting on my bed right now. I hear Chaleece laughing that amazing laugh she has from Rebecca's room. My door is open and I see Lauren walking back and forth doing her laundry. My favorite CD of the moment is playing in the background and my room smells like a combo of my vanilla candle and cooking pumpkin bread wafting from downstairs. And I'm debating with Shawna whether to pack a suitcase rather than a duffel bag.
As I sit and take all of this in I am struck by a familiarity of it. Almost like deja vu. Then I figure out what it is. It reminds me of when I was little and my family would prepare for summer vacation.
Mom would be in the kitchen making cookies, brownies and other goodies for the trip while going over the plans for the millionth time.
Dad is packing the car grumbling about how in the world we need this much stuff and switching loads in the laundry.
Emily and I are in our rooms with the doors open for a change with our prospective music playing. Going back and forth asking if we are bringing this or that. Usually I'm packed first and I sit in her room and keep her company and push her along as she starts her packing.
There is a sense of excitement for the trip to come and all the adventures we are going to have.
I feel safe. I feel comfortable.
I've missed feeling this way. Like what I'm doing at this moment where I am at this moment is right.
Like Lauren commented on my last blog "You will make it through the year... maybe with tears in your eyes and tired hands... yet you will make it."
and I will

Love and miss you all

Bipolar Much?

So the last week has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me and all I can do is hang on and hope no one else gets hurt :)

I have so much to say but no idea how to put the words down and make them sounds compentant. HAHA So frustrating!

Convos with a middle schoolers

This is a conversation I had with one of the middle schoolers from Faith community. I heart them and they make me laugh. :D

Clay

....... Vote fishers

http://www.wthr.com/Global/story.asp?S=5299231#WNPoll87891

Just sayin

9:49pmSarah

haha k

but actually no

i fieldalways gotta support west

9:49pmClay

Evil

9:49pmSarah

westfield

haha

9:49pmClay

demon spawn

9:50pmSarah

clay there no need to talk about yourseldf that way

:)

9:50pmClay

AW thanks, ur always so nice to me!

9:51pmSarah

yeah well your one of my fav red heads

9:51pmClay

And sam is one your lest, of course.

*least

9:51pmSarah

shh dont tell

9:53pmSarah

so why are you pissed at your parents

9:54pmClay

offline

offline

cuz

9:54pmSarah

huh

9:54pmClay

(u keep going offline and i cant send messages)

9:54pmSarah

hmm dont know why

crappy internet connection

9:55pmClay

same here. Storm

9:56pmSarah

so whats up in good ol indiana

9:58pmClay

Well i dont know whats up down there, But here the SKY is up. Like usual. Geez, that place is REALLY different i guess.

9:58pmSarah

yeah it is

our grass is up and we walk on clouds

9:59pmClay

Whoa.... creepy....

10:00pmSarah

it is

10:00pmClay

wouldnt u like..... fal thru?

10:00pmSarah

nah

we swim alot thopught

though

10:01pmClay

What happens when theres lightning?!?!?! Ouch. Ur feet must be made of rubber.

10:01pmSarah

we have special rubber shoes

but it dont get alot of lightening. mostly just rain from the sprinklers

10:02pmClay

how can sprinkles be in clouds?

10:03pmSarah

sprinklers are in the grass which is up

10:03pmClay

So.... Is there still gravity down there?

10:08pmSarah

yes

though sometimes during really bad storms it goes out

so we have gravity jackets that we have to have at all times

so we dont float away

10:10pmClay

Float away into the sky/ground?

10:10pmSarah

ground

well i'm headed out with a friend

it was nice talking woth you

10:11pmClay

Same. adios.